no seriously i think it does.
it keeps saying that the screen is unavailable.
i really wanted to watch it too.
i guess i’m going to have to rely on youtube again….
;n; pandora sucks……
for those of you who watched it,
was it as great as i thought it would be?
*goes and curls up in ball*
;n; stupid pandora.

it all begins with a hot day, and i very mad ashley
and how super junior-happy saved the day.
i’m not mad any more.
but i was..
so here’s what went down.
we had planned to take our two dogs and two cats
to the clinic for shots.
they were running a great promo thing.
so the shots were cheapo.
well we managed to get all of them in the car,
grabbed lunch and we’re on way.
we get there and then the stupid cat carrier breaks.
cappy goes flying out to the other side of the car.
and moochie is basically too frightened to do anything.
so i think maybe the cap got turned with i put it in the car.
oh no that would have it too easy for me.
instead i discover that
IT. BROKE. OFF.
so now i have a broken carrier
it’s freakin’ hot
the dogs are acting up
AND
we haven’t even gotten with 3 feet of our car.
so then my mum does the WORST THING POSSIBLE.
she calls me an IDIOT.
at that point i was pretty much want to go home.
but no, we go all the way over the long ass line.
and we parked at the furthest place possible.
and i was wearing flip flops.
they are soo not suitable for walking in a field with weeds.
so i have to carry the freakin carrier across this hot as hell field.
and trust me when i say this, cappy is not the willowy angel he thinks he is.
so we get there and of course our fucking dogs have to cause a ruckus and bark.
causing everyone to look at us.
and i don’t exactly look like the pleasant girl i like to think i am.
so we get in line and of course i set the carrier in an ant hill.
so i have to move them into the sun.
chilly won’t settle down.
and i basically want to murder everyone i see with my keys,
even the lady who smiled at me.
that’s how mad i was.
so mum just says let’s go home.
so we do.
and when we get there
dumbass chloe won’t get out of the car.
so i yank her out in one pull.
keep in mind this is a full grown 50+ lb. german shepard.
i put the dogs out in the backyard
but not without nearly smashing chloe’s head in the back door.
and katie gets all mad at me and we exchange unpleasantries.
i go out to get the cats and the carrier just breaks in half,
so i let the cats loose
not caring if they ran away or not. but they ran right to the door.
well not cappy. he tried getting in through the garage.
but he’s old and kinda slow so it’s okay.
so i pick him up, reach for the door knob, but it won’t turn.
it’s hot out, my arms are aching, i’m very tired and the door is locked?
then it hits me
THAT (insert bad word) LOCKED ME THE (bleep) OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i still didn’t understand it, but i was sooooooo mad.
so i start yelling for her to open the door.
btw the neighbors probably think i’m violent right now.
my mum opens the door and i throw the cat in and
proceed to yell more obscenities, have enough sense to not throw the broken carrier
at my mum and instead throw it at the ceiling.
so i run up the stairs, see my sister in her room
and i

STOP
now i’m not a violent person by nature.
i may look like a strong girl who could break you in half.
and i could if i wanted to.
(like in 3rd grade, this boy in my class tried to mess with me
and had his finger in my face and was taunting me.
i wasn’t having a lovely day already,
so i did what i thought best.
i bit his finger.
and he left me alone the rest of the year.
and then there was the time when my idiot brother
made the neighborhood kids mad
and then left me to deal with them.
he was up in a tree and i beat all of them up.
here’s the thing.
i was about 5 or 6.)

those are the only times i’ve ever used violence in my life.
i’m actually really gentle and kind.
wouldn’t hurt a fly, well actually that’s kinda fun.
ok so i don’t hurt anything that’s bigger than a fly.
anyway just thought i’d let you know that about me
before you read on
^-^

ok so where were we?
oh yes, i remember.
i saw my sister,
called her some unfriendly names,
went into my room, slammed my door, and kicked it.
i could’ve broke the door or beat up my sister, but i have more control.
i’ve never once laid a hand on my sister.
she’s soooo lucky that i love her a lot.
so then my mum calls her down and she denies it.
and even tries to say that i locked myself out.
so i wait awhile, come down and get a drink.
dumbass can’t even apologize right.
she has a frickin’ attitude.
and doesn’t even mean it.
she still hasn’t apologized.
the cat carrier is still in the livingroom.
and i’m not touching it.
if anyone is wondering why i didn’t completely annihilate her,
i’ll tell you why.
i’m waiting for night to come, so i can take her to a place where no one will hear her screams
=-=
aha
XD
just kidding.
the real reason is that i listened to super junior happy.
and now as i write this, i’m really mellowed out.
so go listen, it’ll make you not want to kill anybody. seriously.

-ashley

so i’m watching the news this morning and
i hear that their had been 2 riots in an attempt
to disrupt the olympic games or rather preparation for it.
There had also been an attempted attack
on one of the torchbearers in paris, france.
you can read more
here
here
and
here
after i researched this for a bit, i got really angry.
why are people so rude and mean?
why do they want to ruin the olympics?
isn’t the olympics one of the few places that the people of the world
can interact peacefully. and with sports no less.
i can understand that the reason terrorists become terrorists
because they were wronged and haven’t ,well, gotten over it.
but i highly suggest kickboxing or karate to get all that agression out.
and maybe some yoga to find some inner peace.
and really the news people weren’t all the smart about pointing out
the two most bombable places, the airport and the bird’s nest(the stadium).
way to give a nice idea for future use. they even showed pictures of the buildings too.
we could’ve hoped that the terrorists were stupid and wouldn’t figure that out.
now we have to do is wait and see what they’ll do.
so where does this tie in with super junior, you ask?
you may or may not know that super junior’s hankyung-shii is going to be a torchbearer for china.
well, the terrorists have attacked or rather attempted to attack someone already.
so that’s probably who they’ll target on the day of the event.
i’m kinda scared for hannie’s sake. i mean i know that beijing is taking lots of precautions
and not to mention training for riots, but what if the terrorists have been planning this for awhile.
and the placed men in the security. they could totally take out someone if they wanted to.
so let’s hope nothing happens.
and if something happens to hannie or anyone else for that matter,
i will be so pissed, i’ll get on a plane to china, hunt down whoever is responsible,
and do horrible tortuous things to them.
why, you ask?
because i’m that twisted.
and because i can.
so if a terrorist just so happens to read this,
know that i will find you and you’ll regret ever doing anything to anybody ever again.
*phew*glad i got that off my chest.
later.

i like it a lot a lot a lot.
they all look hot.
their chinese speaking powers are sexayy
but i don’t even speak chinese, so it may be really off and horrible. ^^;;
ah what the heckle they still sound sexayy
and they get more solo singing time. and the dancing.
i love the dancing.
but as usual the girl looks like a robot (or was it two robots, -o-hmmm a mystery….)
hey at least siwon got to touch her.
i woke up my sister so she would watch this
and at 2:18 she said wow that chick must have bad gas.
i was like LLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!
i luv my sister like a million times more now.
i didn’t even catch that. i had to rewind it.
the guys all looked good.
even the new ones.
henry’s always cute.
jumyuk reminds me or wu zun/siwon/ maybe someone else but i can’t think of their name now.
kyukyu looked well HOT
wonnie had the same expression like entire time. almost like he was trying too hard??
wookie is still my little squishy.
and hae???well i’m glad he got to rap and dance by himself. and he looked foinnne doing it.

now do i think the original mv is better than this?
well in a way yes.
why?
because i missed everyone. 0n0
it made me sad despite the hottness.
i do like the extended solo time and different concept.
but i still watched the original after this, to make me feel better.
now i’m not one of the “only13″ or “forever13″ chicks.
i support their decision to have new groups if:
they don’t keep them in little groups permanently or
add so many members that i can’t tell who’s who anymore.
if you want more people, give them their own group.
you’ll have better sales, because people like new and different thing.
if suju becomes a group of 30, albeit hot guys, i’ll feel intimidated
and possibly won’t want to listen to them anymore.

ok now that i’ve got that off my chest.
and made the page reaaaallllllyyyy long
i’m gonna go watch it. again.

well yesterday, i was pretty busy. the water had been turned off for a few days. that was pretty bad. i love love love water now.last night was the pretty musch the best shower of my life. so anyways, i was pretty busy right? we went to costco and got the regular stuff there. You know like soda and toilet paper. Ah and the food samples really sucked. except for the pie. mmmmm apple. the cheese tasted funky. gross>o< but we did get a huge pack of sharpies. yay sharpies!! then we went to office max. and ended up getting a table for mum’s office. so now i have a place to sit and so does kt. hmm i also recall getting something from there, but i can’t remember what???? i think it was sort type of journal. i know it was also blue. hope i find it or at least remember soon. so we stopped by sally’s because i wanted to get nail stuff. you know so i could do my nails at home, but we decided it was too hard. so i’m just going to get them done. i know which ones i want too. nail art is sooo coooooll. anyways, then we went to target and got more stuff that we needed. like my soda, gum, and those cheddary sunchips we never seem to find. i know i got something there too, no wait i didn’t. i read the magazine in the store. silly  me ^^;;

after all that, we went home and i took a shower, set up mum’s table, and listened to joe hisaishi all night. finally downloaded his albums. i’ve been really lazy about doing stuff. there is a mountain of dishes down there as we speak. well that’s partly because of the water not being on, and partly because i didn’t do them last night. casual forgetfullness i call it. i also keep meaning to update my site and this blog, not to mention, my tcgs, but again i’ve been lazy or not in the mood too. so now that i’ve just updated my site, i’m going to go do the rest of what i said i was going to do. was that confusing or what????
ok luv luv luv
-ashley

so we went on sunday. i expected a cute place to shop, eat and walk. sure the mall rocked. what mall doesn’t? i found my bronzer!!!!! thanx dad!!!!! and me and katie saw a really cute guy. but the actual riverwalk was a bit of a letdown. so here’s my mini-rant of the day.let’s see, it was dirty, smelt like wet dog and pretty much was a money pit. even with less people and at night with lights, i still wouldn’t have thought it to be romantic.

and really bad things happened to me that day too.
i tripped all over the place.
i almost left the loo with toilet paper out of my pants(thx katie!!!)
i got peed on by a bird.
i placed my hand in ice cream(i think)without knowing and wiped my mouth with that hand.

it’s a wonder i didn’t fall in the river. but no worries, mates. i came out just fine. though a bit grimy.*shudders*
it was all better after a superhot shower and this coolio video of sungmin-shii. he’s so unbelievably cute, it’s insane.
the song is called sweet lover by park hye kyung
i uploaded it here>w<

till then, au revoir, mes amis

as you may or may not know, i love haramaki with a passion. ok so no one really knows about it. but you do now.
i love how cute they look and how they make you all warm. i constantly searched for a pattern or tutorial for a year now and i found 3 great sites:
great info
very easy tutorial
a bit harder, but more sophisticated.
i’m knitting one right now. i’ll post pics sooon. hopefully.

onto swapmeets. i finally went. haven’t been there since last year.i was searching for an imitation lv speedy but alas they either weren’t there, supero expensive or had crappy color. i settled for a nicer looking, cheaper and cuter coach. again pictures up soon. my sister is being a total meanie when it comes to her camera. i want my own dangit. =n=
anyways, i also got more hello kitty pens. again, not the fine tip that i love so so much, but they are cute. i also wanted to get more china and chopsticks. why? because i left them at my old house when we moved. stupid stupid stupid me. =n=
so i’m going back on sunday, when the nice korean lady who gives me good deals is there. i think she’s only there on weekends. she’s a dear, she is. ^-^.
onto the hating part. need to vent. so be prepared.

i hate that

it’s smelly
it’s totally ghetto
men totally stare at you
and they don’t stop staring when you glare at them.
(a good thing i took me dad. cause all of a sudden they disapeared. a mystery……..^_^)
people overcharge for clearly crappy stuff
and the air conditioning sucked.
other wise it was a lovely time.

ok i’m done now. feeling eight no ten times better.
another good thing. i got my parents to listen to super junior and they liked them.
all i had to do was sneak a cd into the car. go figure.
but they really like kyukyu’s voice. so do i.
but when i showed my dad their pictures. he was like, they look gay and no you can’t have them over.
he thought i knew them!!!!
i wish!!!
my mum likes watching them on the diff. variety shows with me.
she just didn’t know that they were super junior
so now she likes them a lot and wants to adopt them all even more.
yay. so now i have to convince them to let me go to their concert.
again, i wish!!!!

later, ashley

i’ve had a headache for about 3 days now.this is beginning to get on my nerves…. good thing i’m on break. other wise i’d be pissed. so no work is waiting for me now. hee hee. recently i’ve been reading beauty pop, an awesome manga about this girl who’s a really really really good hair stylist, but she’s really nonchalant about it. like me and my life right now. i know i want to be a teacher, but i love doing hair and makeup and massages(giving not getting.random ppl touching me is not my cuppa tea ^^;) speaking of tea, i have a variety pack. yay =v=. but i also have to go to the bathroom 3x as much. which, frankly sucks. anyways i was thinking of being a beautician on the side or during the summer or something. i don’t know it seems silly to me. ^^; my fam thinks it’s totally dumb because they think it’s stupid for me to go to school for that and want to be a teacher. but que sera sera i’ll do whatever my heart tells me.

on another note, i’ve been listening to ouran host clubost, kororo library ost and clazziquai’s love child of the century on repeat. it’s really relaxing. also i’ve been listening to suju and their voices have been making me cry. so i didn’t listen to them for the past 2 days. you see when i get i get emotional and cry at everything. and then i eat pickles, chips and jelly. and drink non drinkable yogurt with a straw. it’s all very strange. i hate being sick. i’m probably going to cry again when i watch suju’s movie. which i haven’t seen in awhile. off to get more tissues. =_= and tea.

also i’ve been having strange dreams that all the members of suju are attacking me. i’ve woken up in my bathroom, my closet, and my back yard. what does it mean?? on second thought i won’t watch the movie, i’ll go read or sleep. i hate being sick.>0<wahhhhh!!!!

i’m tired of my short hair. it just barely reaches my shoulders and that’s when i’m slouching. i want to do the swish swish of my hair that i used to do. and i found really cute hairstyles that i want to try out with my hair. instead i have to use my sister, but her hair is really thick, so when i try any type of korean style (or any asian style for that matter) it ends up looking really poofy. but when i try the short style on my hair, it works. probably because my hair is more silky and straighter than it used to be, i.e. more asian. even though i’m not asian. far from it, actually. i’m black/white, mixed. but my hair used to be this crazy mess of curls. and ever since i started using pantene pro-v, it’s been less curly and more straight. and extremely silky. so when i straightened it all the way, it reminded me of that awesome asian hair. which made me really really happy. if i sound weird, sorry ^^; anyways, it’s taking forever to grow my hair out. so i may get the clip in extentions. and then i can get the swish swish of the hair i used to have and loved so dearly.

also i finally decided to leave my security blanket of suju and dbsk, and find out what other music is out there. enter fly to the sky. 2 great things about ftts

1. there are only 2 guys. no more mix ups ^0^

2. i’m addicted to their song gravity. i keep playing it over and over.
here’s there video

i can’t wait to listen to the other cds. so i’m pretty happy right now.

except for one thing: i have been painting for about 3 weeks now and my mom said she would treat me to a mani/pedi when i finished. well i’ve been really good these past 3 weeks and resisted biting my nails. till last night, when i ate them in my sleep. so i have no nails. i may just get acrylic and call it a day. cause this is really annoying.  ok i’m going to go work on my fanlistings page. if i can figure out how to use a picture as a link. yes i am that stupid, nya

i’ve been listening to this station for the past few days. i really like eeteuk and eunhyuk’s voices. they’re really relaxing. but there’s only one thing that my family can’t understand. it’s all in korean. no i’m not korean nor do i live in korea. actually i’m far from it.  (i’m half black half white and i live in texas) i know this is going to sound weird, but in a way i think i can understand them. weird, huh? but i love listening to them. also i listen to mainly korean and japanese music. and i still feel like i can understand it. i love the dramas too. i think i like korean and japanese music than my own country’s. one, no one else i know, except ppl on the internet, listens to it, and two i just like the music better. now don’t get me wrong there are artists that don’t totally suck and i’ll give them credit. it’s just that right now, society in america is all about sex and drugs and all the money. it’s not even about music anymore! and it’s really annoying when ppl are like, omg you don’t like your country.(not entirely true) i bet you wish you were asian.(sometimes, but can you blame me??) asian music sucks.(it rocks!!) their language makes no sense.(it’s challenging, but fun to learn) they sound all choppy and barbaric(i love how they talk. it’s pretty to my ears) and stuff like that. listen up, i love this station. i listen to the podcast everyday. i love asian music. i listen to that everyday. don’t make me something that i’m not. don’t try and start something, when you don’t give my music a chance, and stop bothering me.

ok i’m done now. going to listen to today’s podcast.

lalala